"The Poetry of a Multiple Personality"
...by KCStars, aka: K.C. Rinker
For The Sweetness of My Life
I had thought that love was a ruse,
a way for others to heap abuse on me,
a way to be taken advantage of by many,
and wanted nothing more to do with it.I had tried, I thought, and given my best,
put two marriages to the test, only to find
my childhood playing out before me-
and fled the horrors, my son and me.And once again I thought I had found
the love I had been seeking so long,
only to look back 17 years later and see
how long she had heaped abuse on me.And I swore, no matter what or who,
no one else would have the chance to
hurt me anymore. I closed off my
heart and feelings, for safety once more.Through all of this, I learned about me,
about dancing an old familiar dance,
not because it was desired, but because
there was a comfort in the known.Then I met a strange new face, as afraid
of life and love as me. And we talked and
talked, the good and bad, the horrors we
shared so far apart. The pain unending.I found myself amazed to see this woman
still wanting to know me-even the ugly me.
And even more because I wanted to know
her too, and what was past didn't matter.Now I find myself loving again, a much wiser
lover than me. I have never know such love
as this. With no pain or guilt or shame to pay!
And with her help, it will stay this way.For having found the real thing, I will hold on
tightly with both hands, giving all of me as she
has given all of herself, and never let her wonder-
but let her know, she is my love, my life, my soul!copyright 11-03-97 Kcstars (K.C.Rinker)
